hello world. hello sun. hello today.

sometimes i make my chocolate milk with far too much syrup, so sue me. in all honesty i cannot see how an individual wouldn't want excessive amounts of chocolate loveliness inside that cup. makes life all the merrier.
sorry for my leave of absence. i've been spending a lot of time inside my head. making lists replaying memories some real some theoretical. coming up with should haves and would haves and could haves and making myself crazy wishing i could do it all over. but its all been said and done and there's no going back. this is it. this is life. my life. and i can't change the past.
back to the key phrase "sorry for my leave of absence." working on it. getting there. but hello, I'm here. here to tell you to keep breathing. keep getting out of bed each and every morning. regardless of how cold the world is outside your bed. if you make the effort to at least try to have a good day, odds are something will make you smile before the day is done. and in the end you'll do a little play by play of January 30, 2012 in your head and you'll be glad you turned on the light pulled off the covers and said
hello world. hello sun. hello today. I'm ready.
say those words. say them every day. out loud. tell yourself you're ready. to be brave and strong and beautiful. to be happy. tell the world you are happy. happy to live and love and learn and breath and grow and be. ready to be. just be. tell the world you are ready. and the world will be ready for you.
best friend decided to drill it into my silly little head that today would be a good day. she was right. although i did have to get up at six forty. go to financial lit and take a chem test. i saw some people who make me smile. a laughed a little. or maybe a lot and the insane awkwardness my best friend contains and shares with me made me realize i'm okay with. with life. and who i am. i like me. also on the plus side i collected another lucky penny to add to good ol' abe lincoln. so heres to a bloody monday. you were worth it.